So, before you go Was there something I could've said To make your heart beat better?

Last week, I was pretty certain my mom was going to die. This shouldn't be a surprising revelation, especially not 16 years in to this dogshit disease, but there I was, numb and stupefied by the thought. Alzheimer's is especially cruel like that--once you accept the latest loss of your loved one at the hands of this disease, once you get comfy with navigating whatever the new "normal" looks like, another thread in the human fabric begins to unravel and there you are, bracing yourself for the final goodbye.

We're not out of the woods completely, but then again, we never will be. Every day carries the weight of the reality that my mother is dying, will die, eventually, inevitably. And we have turned so many corners already, so many that I'm not sure how many can even be realistically left at this point. But for now, at least, it seems there's at least one more. And so it goes.

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